Judas

There has been something that has bothered me for awhile now, I have been filled with questions about Judas. Now, I know that it had to happen the way it happened, Jesus had to be betrayed to fulfill the prophecies of the Messiah, but on the other hand, since Jesus was perfect? How could he have failed someone like that? I mean, because of what happened Judas took his own life, so wouldn't that mean Jesus failed him? Jesus failed to mentor this man to live the right way?

I have had these thoughts for awhile and then I saw a Discovery special about some writings that arose later that were called "The Secret Gospel of Judas". I thought that maybe that was the answer to the question. It made sense to me that Jesus would ask Judas to make that sacrifice and then it just tore Judas up. It just made more sense to me that Jesus would ask Judas to give this up, to betray the one he loved and served. If that were true, then Jesus wouldn't have failed, and the feelings would have been just as real when Judas betrayed Him. Imagine having someone turning you over to die who didn't want to do it but had to and how hard that would be for them? I studied these writings further, however, and I feel like they are crap so far. I may delve further into them as I struggle to answer the question, because if Jesus was perfect, then how did he fail?